1. Edward
2. Carlisle
3. Esme
4. Mom
5. Charlie
6. Jake
7. Alice
8. Emmett
9. Jasper
10. Rosalie
11. Billy Black
12. Sam Uley
13. Emily Young

1. For most of my life, I lived with my mom in Phoenix, Arizona.
2. Until she married a baseball player and I went to live with my dad, Charlie, in Forks, Washington.
3. I really didn't like it there.
4. Until I met Edward Cullen.
5. And then I fell in love with Edward Cullen.
6. Eventually, Jacob Black became my best friend.
7. My boyfriend is a vampire and best friend is a werewolf.
8. I'm sort of a a magnet for danger.
9. And am the clumsiest person you're likely to ever meet.
10. I want to be turned into a vampire and I want Edward to do it.
11. I can read Wuthering Heights over and over again.
12. I still want to keep my motorcycle even if Edward thinks I'm going to run over someone with it. Or myself.
13. Edward and I are getting married. Yes, I said married.

And no getting upset about my "I'd like to..".

There's something so much more ominous and scary about the woods during a dream. Maybe that's why Bella doesn'tthink twice about stepping in a forest when she's awake unless there's someone in the back of her mind saying to get out as fast as she can. These dreams always happen in the woods.

Bella finds herself running as fast as she can, which given she's not a good runner it's not fast at all. She falls after every few steps then quickly picks herself up and starts running again. Something's after her and she can hear it gaining ground and growling from behind. Turning to look behind her, Bella runs smack into what feels like a tree. Stone still, hard, and... cold. Looking up from the ground, she sees that its no tree.

"Edward!" she exclaims and scrambles back up to her feet, latching onto one of Edward's arms for protection. He just smiles the smallest bit at her then focuses hard on the beast that's now getting closer and closer by the second. "Edward, we need to run!" Bella yells at him, but he's not listening. Instead she's pushed behind him and Edward crouches down into attack mode. Ready and waiting. It's in a split second that she hears a low growl escape from deep inside of him and then he's lunging forward.

There's so much movement that it's hard to figure out what's going on in front of her. Bella jumps back with a scream as Edward's body collides with the beast and then her eyes widen when she realizes exactly who had been chasing her.

"Stop!" she yells as loud as possible, but the vampire and wolf both ignore her. It's Jacob. The beast wasn't a beast at all. It was just Jacob. She'd gone into the woods and of course Edward was there waiting for her. Jake wouldn't want her near Edward and vice versa. Stepping forward, she tries to get their attention, but any closer and she's likely to get hurt herself. "Stop it!" She yells again but it's no use.

Both vampire and wolf are growling at each other and finally they back away and stand just a few feet away from the other, ready to strike in a split second.

"Both of you just stop it!" And, finally, they take their eyes off each other long enough to look at Bella. She's angry and scared at the same time. Only not for herself of course. For either of them killing each other in trying to protect her. Bella looks at Jacob and she just wants to get out of here. With him. Right? Looking between the two of them, she tries to make sense of everything. But she takes one second too long because just as Jake makes a single step in her direction, Edward growls again and they both are focused on each other instead of her.

And as if at the same exact time, they both attack. Bella can see both sets of teeth from each of them.

"Wait!" Crying out, Bella sits up straight in bed, her heart pounding. She looks around to see that instead of a dark forest, she's in her dark room. Breathing hard for a few seconds, Bella falls back onto her mattress and covers her face with her pillow, already know that sleep after that will be impossible.

There were two things I kept insisting on when it came to Edward. One which is happening whether he likes it or not only I was the picky one and wanted it done a certain way. The other is sort of a result from the first since I'm running on a time table here. The first is him changing me. And I do mean him. I'd still get the same result if I would have asked Carlisle or even Alice to do it, but I wanted him literally running through my veins after it was over. Despite all the objections across the board, we finally came to an agreement about it all. But then I had to bring up the second thing. It's still something I'll want no matter the conditions, but a certain condition I wasn't expecting to hear in a million years. I wanted to have sex once with him before I was changed and he wanted me to marry him first.

Who ever would have thought that a vampire would be the one to think about one's reputation in something like this.

It wasn't that I was against the whole concept of marriage entirely, I just was the one growing up who had Renee whispering her ideas on marriage in one ear. I never thought I'd end up stuck in Forks, but just the idea of marriage has always caused me to take a few steps back and figure out how it got to that point into bringing the "m" word into conversation.

At one point, he was going to give me what I wanted without any other conditions whatsoever. Edward knew that I wasn't marriage's number one fan and I know he didn't want me going into it dragging my feet the entire way. It was tempting, you know. To just forget the marriage thing, but I knew then that this wasn't just about me and what I wanted. He wanted to marry me and do this a certain way and if I was getting my way in the end, what could it hurt? I never doubted that Edward and I wouldn't be together forever so why not embrace the satin and lace and whatever else Alice wants to show me.

Life is a Soundtrack
Rules:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie.

( soundtrack )

That's kind of a funny question to ask the daughter of a police chief. Despite my.. attraction to danger or whatever you want to call it, I'm a relatively well-behaved citizen. Sure, there are some things but, I don't act too reckless really. Well. Maybe that's a matter of human opinion? I don't steal. I don't do drugs. I don't have murderous thoughts except maybe when it comes to a certain vampire and another certain human, but that isn't technically murder in my opinion whatever said certain vampire might say about it. Oh, and I even obey the letter of the law because I don't speed. Those limits are set for a reason, you know.

But as for who would be my 3am call from jail, you know, if I happened to get arrested. It would probably be somewhere like Port Angeles or Seattle or something since no one would exactly arrest Charlie Swan's only daughter unless it was something he set up himself as some kind of joke. And even then it would probably be me caught in the wrong place at the wrong time. Since, obviously that's never happened before.

First of all, it wouldn't be Edward. Sorry, but I think I'd be too scared of you roaring into the station. Maybe Charlie depending on what exactly I was being locked up for in the first place. I'd probably want to keep that little offense from him though. Just so he wouldn't try and keep me under lock and key once I got out. Same goes for Edward actually.

No, my 3am call would probably be one of two people. Carlisle or Alice. The first, because he wouldn't have a crazed look in his eye because of having to pick me up in the middle of he night. He's a light sleeper from what I hear. The second, because she wouldn't even need a phone call to know I was playing go fish with some woman named Bertha or sharing a cell with a "girl" named Princess who needed to be standing on a street corner somewhere. If I called Alice, she would already be halfway down the road to get me. And Carlisle would be a good one to convince whatever officer to let me out. So, there you have it. Carlisle and Alice.

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"You knew he was coming back to Forks and you didn't think I should know?" Bella hissed over the phone. She thought she had been seeing things today when that familiar Cullen Jeep. At first she just did a double-take but the second she saw the car make the sharp turn down a side street she knew exactly who had been driving. Instinctively, she'd tightened her hold around Jacob's waist. She wasn't sure if it was to hold on tighter to him or if it was the knee jerk reaction to try and pull herself together. For all she knew, he had seen everything but so far he hadn't mentioned it.

"Bella, I'm sorry. I--"

"Don't give me a bunch of crap of telling me you're sorry, Alice. I know you saw him coming back. You should have warned me before I just happened to see him in a car downtown. He practically ran into a building to try and keep me from seeing him." She'd replayed the scene over and over in her head, trying to picture someone else at the wheel of he car, but every time she always came back with Edward.

"Does it matter?" Alice asked.

"What?"

"Does it matter that you saw him? He's not staying here, Bella. We have some family concerns to take care of and then he's leaving again."

"You know damn well it matters! All those times I asked you, begged you to tell me he was coming back. It's been almost a freaking year, Alice. What am I supposed to do with a year?"

"You haven't asked me about him in months, Bella," Alice answered simply. She was being so frustrating and Bella wanted to slam the phone into a wall. What did it matter? Months and months of slowing dying inside and Alice watched it happen. Now he decided to come back. Now after a year and Bella has been able to find herself and move on without him. "I'm sorry you're upset about him comng back to Forks so suddenly, but trust me when I tell you that it was us who called him back. Not the the other way around. So stop acting like a child who's the center of the universe. There are other reasons for his return."

Bella opened her mouth to say something, but couldn't find the words. She couldn't really remember when Alice had been so forceful with her. She almost sounded hurt. "What are you talking about, Alice?" What she wouldn't give to have that mind-reading trick right now. Even if it was over the phone. Bella realized that Edward would be able to know she called his sister, and she wasn't sure how she felt about that yet.

"Jasper and Emmett got into some trouble in Seattle and Edward came home to help out with them and the situation. It's--"

"Oh my god, are they okay?"

Alice sighed. "They're going to be fine, but things in Seattle are a little worse than we expected." Somehow that "going to be fine" didn't sound as reassuring to Bella as Alice probably wanted it to sound. "Look, Bella, I've got to go check on Jasper. I'm sorry you had to find out this way."

"Okay," Bella said, a little stunned. "Thanks, Alice. Bye."

It was like the past year had suddenly disappeared and she was back reliving those days right after he'd left. So many questions left unanswered and ones she hadn't thought about in months. She was happy with Jake. More than happy, really. She loved him and he couldn't have felt stronger about her if he tried. They'd both come so far in a year and Bella was happy to belong to him and him to her. She knew all of this, but still it was Edward's face that haunted her in her dreams. Stupid vampire.

Dear Jacob,

I wish I knew what to say here, but I really don't know where to start. I know from the others that you've left town. I can't say that I blame you or anything and I understand why. I probably don't have any right to be writing you this at all and for that, I'm sorry. Maybe you don't want to hear any of it, but you'll never truly know how sorry I am about all of this.

I miss you. Again, I don't have the right to say that to you because of how things turned out. I made a choice and I knew the consequences of the choice. I knew how you felt about me, about him, and about what plans we've made. It doesn't change the fact that I do miss you. No matter who or what I am, you'll always be a part of me. You're my best friend, Jake, and I can't explain in words what you mean to me. Even before.. even before other things happened, you were the sun in my life. I still believe that.

The night after that day at your house, I lost a piece of myself I'm sure will always stay broken. Edward will always have all of me, but you were a part of that. You were a part of me. If things had been different.. well. You already know how it would have ended up just as I do, but things aren't different and I hate that I've hurt you. No matter what happened, I knew I was going to end up hurting someone and in the process I ended up hurting myself too. But please don't try to take any of that on yourself. It's all on me and I accept that. It was my choice.

You were right all along. Well, maybe not from the beginning but eventually you proved yourself right. I did love you. You loved me too, and I know it would have been the kind of love that was good for me because you were always good for me. It was what drew me to you in the first place. Your goodness and what it brought out in me.

Where ever you are, Jake, I hope you're okay. I won't say the dumb things about moving on or finding someone else because it's probaby the last thing you'd want to hear from me right now. I just want you to be okay.

Love,
Bella

If I could have a superpower... good question. You know, considering who I spend my time with for the most part (Charlie excluded), I kind of need one of those don't you think? I mean, it's only fair. Jake has his wolf thing Edward had his dumb vampire and reading minds thing, Alice has her visions, Jasper with his "I can make you feel happy all the time if I want to" thing, and who knows what else all of them have.

I'm not really sure what I'd want if I could have a superpower, but it would be something good. Something that beats the hell out of being a werewolf, that's for sure. Not that I have anything against wolves because obviously, I don't. I mean, I kind of have this thing where I fell in love with one but well.

Maybe I could fly or become invisible or something. Eh, but those are so overdone. I once thought that a certain person was like Peter Parker or Bruce Wayne or one of those other guys but I wouldn't really want web coming out from my wrists all the time. Not to mention, Batman wasn't really a superhero. He just had all his cool toys.

Anyway, my superpower.

Still not really sure what I'd want, but we can skip over the flying thing and becoming invisible. And let's face it, with my track record I'd be the worst superhero ever. I'd probably kill the person I was trying to save instead of ... actually saving them. On accident, of course. That's my life story. Thanks, Charlie for that fine dominant gene I inherited.

Actually, I think I'd just take not nearly killing myself or attracting Satan at every turn. My own personal Bella Swan superpower. I'd laugh in the face of danger, not just attract it all the time. That's pretty dumb, though, isn't it?

Ever since she was a little girl, Bella has had the problem with being a klutz. No matter how hard she tries to avoid catastrophe, she ends up in the middle of it somehow. The first day of school in Forks proved that much when she sat beside her new lab partner, Edward Cullen. He'd acted as if she was some sort of demon about to strike and Bella had no idea what she'd done to the guy she'd never even spoke to at all.

Turned out that she had that backwards. Edward? Was a vampire. Yeah, in the literal sense of the word. Immortal, guy who drinks blood vampire. Except he didn't life in a coffin and garlic really had no affect on him whatsoever. Bella was so attracted to Edward, but how could she not be? To say that he was beautiful would be the biggest understatement of the century. Just like the rest of his family. They were all so amazingly beautiful and those velvet voices and skin that.. well. He was pretty. And Bella was in love with him.

Only the fairytale didn't end there. Of course not, because this fairytale wasn't so much of a fairytale as it was a horror story. Complete with blood thirsty vampires and other family members who instinctively tried to kill her at the drop of her blood. In the fairytale, the prince saves the girl. In Bella's personal horror story, the monster she was so in love with breaks her heart and runs away.

Not long after her birthday it went sour. He left and made it clear that he would never be coming back. Like he never existed. Yeah. Right. Months of just existing went by and it didn't go unnoticed. Eventually, she was able to pull herself out with the help of another mystical creature. A werewolf. Go figure.

Jacob brought Bella out of her apathy and finally was able to become herself again. A couple months went by and she realized that the vampire wasn't the only one who could own a piece of her heart. She was in love with a werewolf. Jake always told her that he would never hurt her. That he would never leave her. After hearing the same thing from Edward, she wasn't sure what to think about the words. He'd said he would never hurt her, but he committed the ultimate crime in leaving and hurt her in the worst way possible. But then when Bella curls up in Jacob's warm instead of cold arms, she believes him. He's her protector and best friend. He's never going to leave.

At eighteen years old, I can positively say that I've been in love twice. Say what you want about someone my age not being old enough to know what love is because your opinion simply won't matter to me. The first time, with him, it was fast. Not weeks after knowing him, or at least weeks after he stopped acting as if he hated my existence, I knew I was in love with him. It was the intense kind of love that you can't help but be wrapped up in completely. It hurt when he wasn't there and everything was perfect when he was.

So what if he was a vampire? Apparently, I have this thing about having danger following me around so I guess I decided to turn the tables and follow danger around instead. I was in love with a vampire and I never wanted anyone else. He was my world.

Until he physically pulled himself out of it and left.

I spent months being a zombie. Funny, right? I, the human girl who was in love with a vampire, became the dead zombie after he decided that I was better off and safer without him. Kind of ironic if you ask me, but what do I know? I'm only human.

So many months passed and even though the rest of the Cullens stayed in Forks, there was still a huge piece of me gone that ached all the time without him here. Like I was constantly trying to hold myself together so that I wouldn't literally fall apart. I started getting out of my zombie stage when Charlie, he's my dad, threatened to send me to Florida. I didn't want to leave. Maybe not because I knew this as home, but I didn't want to leave the places we'd spent together. His family was still here and even though being around them was painful sometimes, it was still a part of him that he left behind. Just like me. If I was really ever a part of him at all.

Jake was like the sun in my pathetic life after that. That boyish smile that I couldn't help but smile back at whenever he turned it on me. He helped me find a new kind of Bella that I never was able to be with .. Edward. A younger Bella, a more reckless Bella. It started out that I was riding motorcycles and wanting to jump off cliffs because I heard his voice in my head. That it was a way for him to be there to tell me what to do and protect me when he wasn't really there to do so.

The day I jumped off a cliff, no it wasn't to kill myself despite popular belief, I found out that I had a new protector. I think I'd known it all along, but this was different. Jake could be there to help me enjoy being a little more carefree, but he would always be there to make sure I didn't wind up dead because I guess I have a problem with doing stupid things or something.

For weeks he'd been telling me how he felt about me and I'd constantly told him that it wasn't anything more than friendship for me. Jacob Black was my best friend in every way and I wasn't whole without him. I was me again when I was with him. But then I finally realized I was in love with him too. That he wasn't just my best friend Jacob. That he was my Jacob.

Oh yeah, and he has this thing where he's a werewolf. Nobody said I couldn't stop following danger around, right?

It was almost like Edward could read her mind all along and had just pretended she was the exception to his gift. Picking the one thing that could possibly make Bella hesitate to saying yes, or to even say no. Waiting one or even two years was unbearable enough for a girl who didn’t even want to come close to that twenty year mark. She wanted to be changed and she wanted Edward to be the one to do it. Only the stupid vampire had his own condition or, well, his demand. Marriage. Engagement. The others were just requests. She says the words like she's the one under some direct order not to say them. They’re that hard for her.

He just didn't understand. He didn't grow up with Reneé for almost seventeen years. She wasn’t that girl. She wasn’t supposed to be girl from the small town who gets married right out of high school. Except that’s exactly what she was becoming. Just with a few minor differences. Like immortality, for one.

Eventually, Bella agreed but of course with some reluctance and some conditions of her own. Well, just the one. One that Edward still wouldn’t agree to unless after the whole do you take this man, etc etc. Who ever would have thought that a century-old vampire would have more morals than a human. That was where Bella relearned the meaning of the word “compromise.” Matrimony first. His demand. Sex as a human, as Bella, second. Her demand.

So. Marriage. He promised her something small, something fast, and something that definitely wouldn’t attract much attention. They’d run off to Vegas and have it done before anyone else was the wiser. Except there was one problem. Alice and her visions that always seem to hurt Bella’s plans. Goodbye Vegas chapel and worn jeans.

A big, fancy wedding was the last thing Bella wanted, but she agrees. Partly, yes, to make everyone else happy but also because she knows that they deserve this from her. Charlie, Reneé, Alice, and especially Edward. Even when he told her the deal was off and she could have had him right then. Bella had made up her mind that she wanted to to this the right way. Her right way.

Bella Swan was going to get married, have sex with a vampire, and become immortal. In that order.